' running a never ending road______

Sunday, November 08, 2009

you dont even need to apologise,
its not entirely your fault yeah..?
i can reassure time and time again,
i wont leave just cause i've new friends.
so dont worry.

havent had a good night sleep for dayss.
rahh.

8:00 AM

died__

Friday, November 06, 2009

pw is OVER!
=)

D.
thanks for that posttttt,
where i see my BIG name and BIG face.
haha. and,
yes, the tips=)
so sweeet of you.
thanks for the night.
and wait. NO, im NOT going to complete that game!
in the first place,
i dont even know when we're gonna meet again!

thanks everyone,
who wished me all the best =)

somehow, i find myself so dumb
dumb to fall deeper and deeper into the hole,
knowing that you guys will leave soon.
and yet,
i just keep on going,
and going.
oh well.

thank God for this bunch of j2s,
no matter how we get to know each other,
how short the time we have together.

8:44 PM

died__

Tuesday, November 03, 2009

before i start on my i&r and stuff..

dont think you can push me just because i keep giving in.
it has been the whole freaking year,
putting up with you and your attitude.
mind your attitude before commenting on others please.
i've told you,
be thankful your grades are good.
BUT MINE ISN'T.
you have NO right to command any of us.
i've so many activities,
what a pity you don't.
i feel sorry for you.
and you have NO right to ask me to NOT go.
im not as irresponsible as you.
i have duties to carry out,
i have skills i need to practise.
2 more days,
and it'll soon be over.
in these two days,
IF you push me any more,
I'll BOOM.
i'll do more drastic things than just leave the classroom.
and. STOP PUSHING THE BLAME TO ME.
YOU ARE NOT ME.
YOU DONT UNDERSTAND.
and. IM NOT SOMEONE WHO'LL SKIP CCA.
unlike you.
aww.
and. stop using getting A as a threat to me.
im sorry, DOESNT WORK.

cca days changed,
caused my whole plan to be screwed up.
need to change piano and stuff.
super irritated.
irritated cause we have to share coach.
we dont get his full attention,
we cant improve.

loads of things to decide on.
jersey,
farewell for j2s,
j1 bbq,
all these things..
being a leader in jc is so so different from secondary school.
in secondary school,
everything is decided by our teacher..
as leaders, we just have to carry out and follow their instructions.
in jc,
i dont even need to ask for permission.
just inform and carry out.
good and bad points though.
ah well, got to do my best and lead the team.
i want the team to r.i.s.e.
we'll get into nationals.
=)

my hols is so screwed.
4 weeks of december..
first two weeks overseas.
third week, anshao camp.
last week christmas.
gonna miss trainings =(
i have THREE camps this hols.
wow.=)

where does studies come in..?

kb, thanks for all your heart warming msges despite your A's.
your encouragements every time i feel like giving up on the team.
your advices.
your support.
i'll look forward to you coming back.
=)

mel, thanks for lunching with me so often despite your A's.
and for all your advices on how to lead and bring the team to rise.
i'll look forward to you coming back!
btw. how did we even start talking..?
=)

ms. thanks for always trying to make me laugh, cheering me up in class, hearing me rant although you have things bottled up too.
you know i need you yeah..?
and.. CHILL. things will be over soon.
loves! =)

daryl, thanks for offering to meet me to teach me stuff despite our clashing schedules!!!! ( wanting to meet you is just so tough ><)
and for msging me these days despite me distracting you while doing your work.
you giving your last ten bucks to charity still makes me laugh.
=)

reynold, im glad my books managed to help you with your O's.
thanks for still being there despite being in a different school.
novemeber's here.
i've known you for about two years soon..
somehow, i still wonder.
how did we even start talking?
talking so much,
knowing that you are so shy..
yet, we still managed to talk.
hmm.
any way, it still feels great to have you msging me,
keeping me updated about your O's.
i look forward to 6 points.
keep going okay..?
im still here,
like how i was..
=)

navin. I UPDATED HOR!
update yours too.
and..
yes yes, you're awesome =)
somehow or another..
i still miss the times when we could just..
talk,
talk,
talk..
and go on talking.
and talking.
and talking.
but nevermind..
at least we still do talk.
thanks for listening to my rants, always..
=)

my girls.
thanks for being so supportive. <3.

anshao.
thanks for all the prayers, encouragement, support,
laughs, love. <3

aikido mates.
thanks for all the encouragements.
sorry for disappointing your..
but, i really have to quit.
its beyond my control.
i'll come back soon, i promise..
<3.

all the best for A levels. =)
my basketball girls,
j2 seniors,
anshao-ers,
anyone,
everyone.
i cant wait for A levels to end.

thank God.
for EVERYTHING ABOVE! =)

8:31 PM

died__

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

im loving my girls alot alot more these days.
matches.
dinner.
saddness.
facts.
talk.
care.
love.

soon, bond.=)

thanks for giving me the support today by turning up! =)

quit quit quit.
im a quitter.
i'll quit.
i'll quit aikido.
i'll quit piano.
what else do you want me to quit?
basketball?
church?
school?
i've been living a life since 4 for you.
all you do is pay pay pay.
and i have to learn learn learn,
trying to turn all the costs into benefits.
what do i get?

somehow,
im missing people alot alot more these days.
sigh.

whatever.

10:40 PM

died__

Sunday, October 25, 2009

sorry.
i dont dare lean any closer.
cause we'll soon need to part.

8:52 PM

died__

Saturday, October 24, 2009

my friend recently asked me.
does God really answer prayers?
and now, i am very certain He does.
through the period of promos, i kept asking God to show me the way.
if it's the right path, may i be able to promote naturally without retest or retaining.
when i got back chem, i knew passing 2 H2s was impossible already.
when i got back gp, i heaved a sigh of relief.
when i got back maths, i knew i was almost dead.
when i got back physics, i knew i was dead.
when i got back econs, i knew it was the end of the world.
i failed all 4 H2s.
apparently, i didn't cry, i didn't even feel sad.
i just felt calm.
with friends around me, even calmer.
the day just went by,
and i still kept praying, praying, praying,
my bros and sis in christ continued praying for me too.
when i got the master sheet ( after moderation and all )the next day,
guess what.
I PASSED 2 H2 AND 2 H1!!!!!
i didnt even need to go for retest nor get retained.
HOW GREAT CAN GOD BE?!?!
200++ people didn't make it.
and yet i did.
and i passed, on the dot 45.
what more can i say?
merciful God.
=)
it wasn't luck.
it was God's grace.

so.. does prayer work?
it does.
definately does. =).

8:08 AM

died__

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

though my results suck,
i still want to thank God.
for the people, that stood by me up till now,
giving me hugs, making me laugh, making me smile.
for my grades, cause it's better than some others still,
though i may not get promoted.
for the people, who trusted in my ability.

the road ahead, im unsure.
but i know that.
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."
2 Corinthians 12:9

i love impromptu meetings.
yesterday went out with sarah for lunch after school,
then orchard after piano.
today went out with daryl after school for lunch.
and that chicken backside made me walk all the way to his school and back to interchange ><
had a great great time with them. =)

finally, after nearly a week,
everything's back to normal.
and we're finally talking.

all the best for O's boy.
remember what you promised me,
0 regrets. jiayou.

11:11 PM

died__